Chapter 4~Burn-Out & Biblical Blossoms

Let no one despise you for your youth, but set the believers an example in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, in purity.”
~1 Timothy 4:12 (ESV)

Hello again, everyone! For those who have stuck around, thank you from the deepest parts of my heart. For those of you that are new, nice to meet you! We are doing something a little different around here this year. This last year was incredible but so full of changes. I became engaged to the most wonderful, godly man I could have prayed for. I was rear-ended in a pretty nasty wreck that resulted in the loss of my mint condition-barely-over-40,000-miles-Mustang. I graduated with my Bachelor of Science and moved to energetic, beaming, outgoing Texas from the soft, gentle, glistening Washington, and then was married to the aforementioned handsome and unbelievably cherishing man all within six months. All the while during this, I was reading and reviewing and responding to ARCs and marketing/promoting each book, while working a full-time job, attending my Master’s program, and attempting to find a new church…and then, the unthinkable happened.

I became burnt out.

Okay, perhaps it doesn’t seem to be that unthinkable when it is written out like that. Yes, there were a lot of life changes within the last year and a lot of uncomfortable growing. However, a lot of my burn-out came from trying to fill myself up with worldly things rather than that of the Lord. Instead of listening and burying my nose in the BEST love letter ever written, I was plying my soul with fruitless, shallow romances that quickly didn’t pique my interest as they used to. However, I quickly realized something needed to change and found solace in diving more into scripture. It was like I was a withered flower, but instead of water, I could not get enough of His Word and teachings. Slowly I have been able to find my identity again, but this time it’s reestablished within God and through grace-filled growing pains.

Now, I should probably clarify. I was raised in the church. My momma was a PK (pastor’s kid), I accepted Christ into my heart on the stairs of my childhood home when I was five years old, I went to a Christian private school for over half my life, and I was baptized in 2019 in front of my church. Yet I think the problem with so many Christian believers today is that those who are raised in the church take God’s gift for granted far more than those who had to battle early on to discover Christ’s love. Additionally, when we get into busy periods of our lives, because we have been conditioned to take God for granted, it then becomes easier to put Him on the backburner…until life becomes messy because you were the one trying to control life rather than surrendering it to God. Shamefully, both of these situations happened at the same time, and marriage brings a lot of these shortcomings to life. Through His gentle nurturing though, the worldly and sinful within my garden is slowly being pruned to give rise to Biblical blossoms.

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So this year, I am going to be diving deeper into Biblically based books (peep the TBR pile above–don’t worry I am still excited to review books!), go through some beautiful devotions that I found, read through the most wondrous text composed, and hope to foster a wonderful community on this platform. My goal for this page is to grow with y’all and start to use my gifts the way God has intended. I hope you will stick around for this adventure because I can assure you, this is such sweet grace that you do not want to pass by.

Happy Reading,
~The Brown-Eyed Bookaholic

Instagram: @browneyedbookaholic

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